I have been thinking about killing off this blog lately. Honestly, it started when I was first in Bulgaria, as a wide-eyed Peace Corps volunteer, continued through marriage, moving to Turkey, settling in Bulgaria, and becoming a mother. Am I really going to get much more transformation than that?
Lately, it seems like I am pulling teeth any time I try to figure out a topic to write about. I no longer feel as free and reckless about what I put online as I did back in my tribe days (those were some juicy if insane posts) and I feel guilty when I don’t update regularly, even if there is no reason to.
Of course, someday there will not be a toddler in my life and there may be a house and different work and maybe even an excursion back into academia. These are all worth writing about, but life in the middle of winter with a toddler is pretty much the same thing every day, every week, isn’t it?
At the moment I am trying to come up with something else to write about. I want to do some sort of creative blog to get back into creative writing, but I am so rusty at the moment that I can’t think of anything that would engage me long-term. I also want to up the types of media- do something with my camera and new microphone, but again, I have no idea what to do.
Fifteen years ago blogging was easy. I wrote about whatever. Now it is all about niche markets and media-saturated readers. I am enjoying writing the Paiyak Development blog, because it is more professional than this blog and has some restrictions and parameters to it. But at the moment, this one is just a headache and a heartache. So, it might be time to shut it down.